@Kidfried I guess you could say I've barely lived a life until now, dwelling within a thick fog of anxiety, learned helplessness, paralyzing routine, and cynicism. I existed as a stranger in my own skin.
Slowly, over the course of several months now, that fog has been lifting. My initial reaction to this was having my weeks punctuated by crippling depressive episodes (think multiple days at a time where I was practically dead inside). I'm gradually emerging from this psychological torment a far stronger and more connected person, however, and am set on setting aflame the psychological, spiritual, and practical barriers to my own happiness.
@RogerRoger Thanks. It is frightening: there's a sort of comfort in staying sunk within the status quo of one's life and just... rotting there, allowing the days, weeks, and months to pass you in a blur, and that comfort is increasingly disappearing for me. It's a small price to pay for feeling like a human again, though.
Well, I was never fully gone, but my presence online has been diminished for a good while now. I'm at the point where I'd like to start posting every day again.
@RogerRoger Thanks. It's... a lot. It'll take a long time before I get where I want to be, but I can feel myself becoming less ashamed and more open to the world every day, and for now that has to be enough.
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@RogerRoger LOL I didn't feel like your last reply was excessively sappy. But then I've also become more comfortable with accepting praise recently. It comes with the boost in confidence, I guess.
Thank you! I'm excited to grow and change and become the version of myself I've always wanted to be.
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I've been alright thank you. Nothing too wild on my end compared to what's been going with you.
I'm real proud of you Ral and it warms my heart for you having the courage to take back control of your life and becoming the person you've always wanted to be.
Good on you and I wish you all the best on this journey and hope it becomes much easier for you.
Previously known as Foxy-Goddess-Scotchy
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"You don't have to save the world to find meaning in life. Sometimes all you need is something simple, like someone to take care of"
@Ralizah It’s good to hear you’re doing better, we all have our own stuff going on so it’s totally understandable for people to take breaks here and there.
@Ralizah You come and go more than the Karma Chameleon. Glad things are getting better for you though!
"A corpse... should be left well alone. Oh, I know very well. How the secrets beckon so sweetly. Only an honest death will cure you now. Liberate you, from your wild curiosity." - Lady Maria of the Astral Clocktower.
@RogerRoger Your screenshot competitions have been a joy to follow, and even for a novice like me to participate in. Thanks for your efforts these last few years.
P.S. I hope this doesn’t mean a retirement from all future contributions to our Push Square forum, routine or otherwise. It’s a brighter and more interesting place when you’re in it.
Regardless, you know I support you 1000% on whatever you need to do, my friend.
“We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them.”
I figured this might be the case @RogerRoger and was actually going to message you about it.
No worries about not being able to do it. You come first and I hope you're doing well.
Being a teacher my schedule is pretty hectic this next month so... I'd really prefer the chushy judging position but if push comes to shove and no one else volunteers to take the reigns then... I might attempt taking charge just to keep it going. It's forum tradition at this point and I'd hate to see it absent this year.
No promises though.
If someone does take over and it isn't me... For the love god no "Comedic" category like last year... That was really rough and I'm not judging it again
@RogerRoger that's a shame pal. But understandable nonetheless.
Life tends to run in cycles and in a few years you may want to run something similar, amongst the forums, or somewhere else.
Great work anyway mate. Always a pleasant surprise reading the forum posts and the finale article.
Have a great Christmas and New Year.
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Well I made a topic about it and used your monster tag list of everyone who took part last year. No pressure of course to any of 'em but let's hope someone takes up the mantle who has the free time to do so!
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