Topic: Mental Health Awareness/ Support Chat

@RogerRoger Thank you for the kind words, I cannot fathom how much it means to me for your kindness and support, you are one of the best people on here and seem like a genuinely great person (unsure if you're a guy or a girl so I will say person lol).

It has been rough for a while and I decided there is only so much I can do and it would be a good decision to get a professionals advice, whether it is counselling or medication I go onto, I truly believe it will help and I want to make this year a great one so want to fight this with all my strength and as early on in 2020 as I possibly can.

I definitely feel similar to the ways you are describing, where I can actually see the light through the crack and know I just need that little push to finally prise the door from its hinges. And don't be silly, your words are of such value to me and your kindness intertwined with those words mean just as much as having a companion so seriously thank you, thank you a lot.

I would love to get in touch with some people on here (including you) on other social media sites such as Twitter if you use them as it would be nice to talk to more mutuals outside of PushSquare and have more direct conversations.

And thank you for holding out hope for me, and I am certain your hope will come to fruition once I see a Doctor and get the ball rolling on what will hopefully be a very good change in my mental health.

Thank you again, thank you so much.

@RogerRoger Right place and time for sure! None the less I am still grateful for your kindness and support man so thank you a lot (as you said, bloking it up 😉).

I will definitely keep an open mind with professional help, and will try my best to not let any bad experience phase me and set me back further and I will build on the advice you are giving me, and I do hope you are in a much better place now as you do seem very strong mentally (which I wish was an attribute I had!)

I will definitely come back to your advice and this thread whenever I feel myself slipping but am hoping that professional help will give the equipment to finally climb the mountain we call Mental Health and hopefully I will reach its peak!

Ah smart choice to keep your internet presence to here as I can assure you Twitter can be rage inducing if you run into many popular trends and see some of the "clever" opinions. However I will definitely add your PSN at some point later tonight and will pop in a little message to let you know it is me!

And I treated myself the other week funnily enough to a 40" 4K UHD HDR Smart TV and have got some games to get through to enjoy on the new display.

My picks are between Horizon Zero Dawn or Metro Exodus (I got those both around November for my evergrowing backlog and am wondering which is more worth experience first.)

@DonJorginho Vent away chap - it is a good thing to tell others how you feel and not to feel ashamed.

I'm not expert but these things are ups and downs I find and there is often no rhyme and reason. I think it is good you focus on you and going to see the doctor is a big first step. Medication is good but so is finding a space to talk to a professional and spend that time being able to express yourself.

I think opinions are changing and that people are realising that feeling this way is not the way life is meant to be experienced and seeing someone is no different from any other condition or symptom you need help with.

Just remember that the night is always darkest before the dawn.

@Rudy_Manchego Thank you kind sir, I am definitely looking into either Medication or some Counselling as I feel either will be beneficial to me for now and in the long run.

I agree the whole stigma on Mental Health is changing and society is a lot more accepting as it is is something that affects even the best of us.

I will remember that and again thank you so much for your advice and kind words, I will have to give you a follow on Twitter later!

i gave up on mu mental health years ago, sometimes something is just too broken to fix

i don't feel anything for anyone anymore, i don't care about my self anymore, i just live from day to day doing what i have to

the only thing that brings me any kind of feeling is playing video games

i know i'm done but it's nice to see some people are at least trying to help others now a days, i just wish that was around when i needed it

@FullbringIchigo No-one is ever too broken to fix mate, especially when it is regarding mental health.

Have you seen professional help? Taken up any activities outside Gaming?

I am in a rut myself but I am good at talking a good talk and actually am better at helping out others than I am at helping myself so I assure you I would love to support you and give you some advice and let you know that you aren't alone and people care about you deeply.

I am sorry that this help wasn't around when you needed it most, but I promise me and countless others would be willing to give you a form of help now, regardless of your mindset, there is never any harm in trying again and trying to help yourself mentally.

I can relate to your situation heavily and am genuinely sorry for how you are feeling and am seriously here for you, if you want I can leave my Twitter which I can contact you on outside of PS and can talk to you daily about issues, life and yourself in general.

Stay strong brother, I'm always here.

@RogerRoger has rather eloquently given you the most important and resonant advice @DonJorginho that could possibly be given to you... The fact you've sought professional help is a big step in the right direction though as he says it will take time and patience to find out what will ultimately help you.

Just take it one day at a time and if you do slip up, try not to chastise yourself too much. We all are our own worst enemies at times, especially so with our little inner demons.

I had (well I still have in a way) some troubles with some rather gutwrenching circumstances at work before the christmas break.

Even though I haven't told anyone here what exactly happened the wellwishes I recieved from all the regulars on here in the forums, as I left for a little over a week to clear my head, was very heartwarming and really did help me... especially to not lash out at something that had in particular set me off (An ill timed joke that wasn't in the best of tastes anyway)

... As for the games I'd personally go with Horizon myself, but if a bleak post apocalyptic train ride across Russia fighting mutant animals and the vicious morality of mankind ends up easing your troubles then play what you gotta 😊

@DonJorginho i'm pushing 40 here and have been living with it for decades now, ever since primary school, there isn't really much that can be done now because it's become my norm, I don't know any other way to think or live and as strange as it sounds trying to change now is worthless for me and while i don't feel anything about anyone or myself i have found a way to live like that and i don't think i could handle anything "upsetting the apple cart" so to speak

it might sound odd but i have a strange kind of balance and that's enough for me

@JoeBlogs Thank you for the kindness mate it means an awful lot, funnily enough I have never actually played Chess! I always liked the look of it but was always so overwhelmed by the rules I always ran away from it.

However for the time being whilst I potentially read up about it now I am a lot older and hopefully wiser, I will make an account on the site ASAP and send you my details?

@FullbringIchigo I see man, well if you ever just need someone else to talk to I am always here and I mean that brother.

@DonJorginho Feel free man - I would also vote Horizon just because it is pretty absorbing and quite exciting and has a likeable cast. Basically, I just loved playing Horizon.

@Rudy_Manchego I will take your advice man, besides as @RogerRoger said, Metro is a bit bleak and is maybe the last thing I need right now lol!

@JoeBlogs Sent you a request mate, I will probably just chat for now but will learn when I can lol

@DonJorginho I found Yoku's Island Express the ultimate pick me up game. Not the usual thing I play either, but definetly made me feel a whole lot better after playing it.

@RogerRoger Thank you! I have it scheduled for after work, am s*****ing myself but it will be worth it I am sure.

@DonJorginho Good luck!

@Rudy_Manchego Thank you!

I have schizoaffective, anxiety, depression, and PTSD. I barely leave my house except for groceries and group therapy once a week. I pretty much live on the internet.

@DonJorginho
This is a really great idea and thank you for being brave enough to post and support. I too have had some issues with depression and anxiety and still do it can be hard for some people to understand and sadly there’s still some stigma. I too use gaming and tried to find a passion project like our podcast to give me something to think about other than the issues I was having that lead to me suffering from depression and anxiety. Gaming to be fair has been my biggest helper it focuses the mind and let’s me enjoy something without my mind wandering. I’d recommend to anyone firstly as a distraction but secondly as a way to build up your confidence and keep your mind engaged. Gaming challenges you , with obvious puzzles or just forcing you to think out strategies etc. More than all that it brings you in contact with other people and once people open up you realise your not alone and your not the only one suffering with these issues. Lastly don’t be alone with your thoughts , come here to talk if you have no where else. In my darkest I thought no one would understand or I’d be shunned, I was wrong people can be so kind and understand more than you could realise, please anyone who’s reading this whos in a dark place reach out , I for one will do my best to listen

@futaba I am sorry to hear that, and if you ever need someone to talk to then add my PSN at SamxSZN or follow my Twitter which is the same handle as my Push account, I will always be free to talk when not at work.

It is still good that you're getting out at some point from the house for GT, it will always do more good than harm and will improve your mental state in ways slowly but surely.

Just try and keep your head up and try and push yourself to go somewhere once a month, like something different to your routine, be it the movies or down to your local beach or just out for a morning coffee.

That will benefit you in the long run and will go a long way to your mental recovery